Hey, thanks 2009!

Dear 2009,


I mean, seriously.


You’ve totally blown me away. Not just because somehow it’s already December. But because you’ve managed to pack a ton of awesome into the last twelve months.

Don’t get me wrong. There was some stuff that sucked.

Like watching Mom get older. And have a hard time dancing on Thursdays. Or keeping up her yard in the summer. And seeing how overwhelmed she felt.

Or missing Dad. Like crazy. All the time. Especially when the site launched. Because I totally wanted him to see it. And be able to celebrate with me.

And speaking of the site, it sucked being crazy stuck around all things site related in January. And February. Oh, and in March and April too.

Or feeling totally terrified about starting a blog. And being pretty sure I’d be a miserable failure at it.

Or just about crashing and burning because I was working way too much. And totally not taking care of myself.

Yeah, that sucked.

But there’s been way more awesome than suck.

I was able to get a studio set up.

A studio! Of my very own!


You know about the studio I had years ago, right? The one that went buhbye when a bunch of suck happened?

Yeah, that was a huge ouch.

So having another studio has been a big dream. For like 14 or 15 years or something.

And it totally happened this year.

It still feels kind of surreal. But I lovelovelove that space so much.

And after a long, painful, weird and wonderful ordeal, my website was finally finished.

Like all done. Ready to roll. 3-2-1 liftoff!

It launched its gorgeous self into the world on July 4th. Which felt like a totally perfect day to set it off. Like a big boom-ey bunch of fireworks. Or something.

Oh, and I actually got to see Krishna Das in April.


(Who knew he’d ever come to Cincinnati or Indianapolis?)

Both times were even more fabulous and amazing and powerful than I imagined.

Meeting him was awesome too. Even if I got all blarghedey mouthed and stumbled over my words. Both times.

And as for the meeting people thing, I met some of the most fabulous people ever during 2009.

There’s no way I can list them all here. Because that would make this like a bazillion pages long.

So I’ve committed to just talking about five six seven eight people of much awesomeness.

Like Havi (@havi). Who created the perfect incubator for awesome with her Kitchen Table program. I was pretty sure a group this fabulous couldn’t possibly exist. Havi proved me wrong. And hanging with these cats has been life changing. Plus Havi has a duck. Who is a rockstar. Duck love forever!

Or Naomi (@IttyBiz). Who I adore for having a huge heart and a close personal relationship with the f word. She is also pretty much a genius. At marketing. And other stuff. She also has a shaved head. And she’s given me crazy support and all kinds of brilliant advice. Naomi just drips with smartness. And she raised enough money to build a school. In Cambodia. In 24 hours.

Or Mark (@MarkHeartofBiz). Who has managed to marry marketing and spirituality in a way that rocked my world. I was in the middle of writing stuff for my site when I bumped into his stuff. I scrapped it all because what Mark was spinning made so much sense. He’s also a Sufi. Who plays Frisbee. And eats carob. (I don’t hold the carob thing against him though.)

Or Jen (@jenlouden). Who is the epitome of comfort and support and down-to-earth awesomeness. She writes books of much gorgeousness. And leads retreats. And has a whole corner of the interwebs devoted to comfort! (You can totally take a break to happy dance, if you want.) And when she asked me to be a part of her virtual retreat, I ran around the house in circles. Clapping. For three whole days. Jen is pure, unadulterated fabulousness.

Or Charlie (@CharlieGilkey). Who worked his mojo to get me unassed enough to actually make my website happen. That’s what convinced me that Charlie is secretly a magician. He blows me away with how his brain works. And how he makes productivity something real and awesome and doable. Charlie is one of the smartest people I know. And he’s totally my go-to guy for making stuff happen.

Or Molly (@shaboom). Who first caught my eye with her marketing smartness. And the way she dishes up piping hot support for us entrepreneurial types. One of the things I dig most about Molly is that she nudges people to stretch, to make room for maximum gorgeousness in their life. The world needs more people like this.

Or Hiro (@HiroBoga). Who totally helped when my energy was all knotted up around the website stuff. Which rocked. Because even though I spend my days helping people get unstuck, sometimes you can’t use your own superpowers on yourself. And Hiro helped shift some stuck and get things cookin’ again.

Or Sparkyfirepants (@sparkyfirepants). Whose real name is David. But who I call Mr. Pants in my head thanks to Havi. He is one of the nicest guys around. And he births ninjas. Well, he does the most awesome illustration work ever. And he whipped up the coolest custom ninja for me. (Who is about to be unleashed on the world berry berry soon. Yay!)

Have I used up my eight spots already?

Aw crap.

Are you sure I don’t have more room?

Because if I did, I’d totally talk about Lisa and Leonie and Julie and Chris.

And Joyce and Nathan and Kate.

And Leah and Jamie and Bridget and Koren.

And Cairene and Natalie and Gina and Deborah.

And Kirstin and Tim and Sarah.

And Hayden and Jen and Sarah.

And Laurie and Stacey and Pam and Michele.

And Wulfie and Suzanne and Toby.

And about 100 other people.


(Can you tell how much I seriously suck at trying to narrow the List Of Awesome People I Dig down?)

And then there’s all of the gorgeous people who have been hanging out on my blog.

The people who I appreciate like crazy. Because I was worried that my blog would debut to the sound of crickets.

But folks showed up!

And not only have they shown up, but they brought smart stuff and gorgeous stuff and funny stuff and personal stuff.

And I am completely, crazy, over-the-moon grateful to every single one of them. Thankyouthankyouthankyou!

And if we’re talking about fabulous people who have rocked my world, I have heaps of thank yous to pass around to my clients.

Not just because I’ve gotten to meet some of the bravest and most amazing people ever. And watch them shift insane amounts of stuck in record time. And see their lives get way more awesome.

But because every single person I’ve worked with has totally been a teacher for me.

Like the couple who reminded me how important right rhythms are in relationships. And how things can get gorgeous again when you find that rhythm.

Or the deaf client. Who saw the sound that I was playing. And completely blew my mind. And taught me so much about how sound really works.

Or the lady who was absolutely terrified of planes. Who avoided them for like 20 years. And who has been on like five trips since our session and sends me postcards every time. And who taught me that even great big gigantic fear doesn’t have to be forever.

Or the artist who had big stuck around finishing her dissertation. And who so totally rocked it that I didn’t know whether to clap or get teary eyed. (I did both.) She showed me what kind of awesome happens when you find your voice.

Or the lady who had been stuck and struggling for almost 50 years. Who felt like nothing ever helped. And who saw stuff shift so fast that now she has hope that life can be fabulous. She reminded me of how sound really is a rockstar at handling huge stuff. And how there’s always reason to hope.

Or… or… or…

I could write about every single client.


Because every one of them has inspired me in some way. I don’t mean that in the cheesy buzzword-ey way. But in the you-so-totally-rock-the-Casbah way.

And just the fact that they showed up. And trusted me enough to share their big stuck and deep pain and gorgeous dreams. I am so totally touched that I barely have the words.

And ohmygod I have learned so much this year.

I learned that sometimes saying eff the odds is the best thing to do. Sometimes it’s the only thing to do.

I learned that punk rock can cure perfectionism.

I learned that music really does save lives. (If you haven’t read the comments on this one, you totally have to.)

And I learned about the power of being around fabulous people. And how that kind of connection is really where the mojo is. And how that mojo makes way more gorgeous happen than you can ever imagine.

I am so totally grateful for everyone I met in 2009.

And how, yeah, there was some suck. But there was so much more awesome.

Can I just tell you how much I love that?

Thanks 2009.

Here’s to even more gorgeousness in 2010.

Big love,

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16 Responses to Hey, thanks 2009!
  1. Hiro Boga
    December 31, 2009 | 1:07 pm

    Ah, Fabeku, it’s lovely to celebrate all that you’ve accomplished this year, including your delectable new website, your blog, your growing collection of wonderful music and your own beautiful self.

    Thank you for including me on your *eight* list this year–I’m honored.

    Wishing you so much goodness in 2010!

    Love and hugs,

    .-= Hiro Boga´s last blog ..Naming the Stars in the Sky =-.

  2. Katie Schroth
    December 31, 2009 | 1:37 pm

    Ah, the time of year for reflection and remembrance. Yes, there was some suck this year – I will leave it unshared, because really it was overshadowed by the amazing amount of awesome – making great new friends, my life opening up in ways that is amazing, just truly enjoying being alive.

    Deep thanks to you for all you have shared this year. I love reading your blog and reflecting. I have listened to Remembering Through Resonance countless time. I begin almost every morning by putting BiggieSize It on replay until I feel open and ready for the awesomesauce the day will bring.

    And you introduced me to one of the real joys of my life – Singing Bowls. WOW. They are just incredible.

    Yes, it’s been a very good year. Thank you for the goodness you helped bring to it. I look forward to an even more amazing 2010.

    Peace to all.

  3. Elizabeth
    December 31, 2009 | 1:38 pm

    Oh, Fabeku. It is wonderful to celebrate all your goodness with you. I wish you so much more in 2010. I am so very happy that I found your sound this year .. it shifted a very old and painful stuck for me, and someday I will finish my email thanking you for that.
    .-= Elizabeth´s last blog ..walking in a winter wonderland =-.

  4. Naomi Dunford
    December 31, 2009 | 1:41 pm

    Jesus Christ, you get awesomer EVERY FUCKING MINUTE.

    Here’s hoping your 2010 post says:

    “Dear 2010,

    Seriously, could you please have come up with something sucky? Because a post that says ‘Everything was great’ is just lame.

    Big love and mild annoyance,

    .-= Naomi Dunford´s last blog ..17 Minutes, Unedited or Proofread, On Beyond Blogging =-.

  5. Leah
    December 31, 2009 | 2:13 pm

    I’m so grateful for you, Fabeku! Here’s to a fantabulous ninja-full New Year!
    .-= Leah´s last blog ..2010 Creative Every Day Challenge Update & FAQ’s =-.

  6. Mr. Pants
    December 31, 2009 | 2:15 pm

    I’m trying to come up with a killer punk song that expresses the awesomeness that is Fabeku.

    I can’t get Chicago’s “You’re the Inspiration” out of my head. Gah!

    It will come to me.

    When I downloaded your music, I was hooked. I didn’t have any issues to address with it (because I am perfect and have no issues), but having that beat going while my stylus is scratching away is magic.

    OK, I thought of a song. “Out of Work Musician” by The Monks.


    Fabeku, you rock. And You’re the Inspiration.
    .-= Mr. Pants´s last undefined ..(Enjoy 10 returned posts for Christmas) =-.

  7. Rachael
    December 31, 2009 | 2:31 pm

    I’ve only just begun to get to know you, and to absolutely love your awesome self and your way of doing things, and I am SO happy to know you on this very end of the year! 🙂

  8. Barbara Martin (
    December 31, 2009 | 2:48 pm

    Fabeku, you have totally built something awesome here in this space and in people’s lives via hard work, heart, the sacred sound and … caring, so much. 2010 will be even better! 🙂
    .-= Barbara Martin (@Reptitude)´s last blog ..Protect us from Perfection =-.

  9. Gina
    December 31, 2009 | 2:51 pm

    You know what they say, “Every suck has a silver lining.” What? They don’t say that? Well, then I take full credit for it. You’re welcome.

    So glad to have met you this year and see you spreading your awesome around. You touch many people’s lives, and I’m sure will touch many more, especially if I have anything to do with it.

    Rock on.
    .-= Gina´s last blog ..End of the Year Shout-Outs =-.

  10. Hayden Tompkins
    January 1, 2010 | 2:01 am

    Fabeku, I have to be honest, I have been indulging in libations. A lot. So maybe I should wait until tomorrow to tell you HOW FREAKING AWESOME YOU ARE.


    You are such an amazing person, I connect with you in such a personal and spiritual and badassical way. The music just comes right through you to me.


    Happy New Year and keep rocking the universe.
    .-= Hayden Tompkins´s last blog ..How to Rock 2010! =-.

  11. Josiane
    January 2, 2010 | 12:08 am

    Dear Fabeku, you’re up there on my list of people I’m really happy I met during this past year. I’m grateful you’re now part of my life, and I’m looking forward to doing some more hanging out with you! I’m glad you introduced me to sacred sound; playing and experimenting some more with that sound stuff is part of my plans for 2010. 🙂
    .-= Josiane´s last blog ..Noticing – the dragonfly edition =-.

  12. Wulfie
    January 3, 2010 | 1:40 pm

    Yeah Baby! This totally rocks. Thanks for reminding me that even though lots of stuff sucked…lots of other stuff was awesome. Sometimes the sucked crowds out the awesome and I forget. Much appreciated reminder!

  13. Shawna R. B. Atteberry
    January 3, 2010 | 10:13 pm

    You’re going to be part of the virtual retreat? Sweet. I won a post on Jen’s Freedom from Self-Improvement Week. I will be there too, and I can’t wait.

    So glad for your year of awesomeness!
    .-= Shawna R. B. Atteberry´s last blog ..Life Insights from 2009 I’m taking into 2010 =-.

  14. Molly Gordon
    January 4, 2010 | 2:17 pm

    Dear One,

    You’re at the top of my Gifts from Twitter list for 2009. Thank you for being your generous, effusive, best-fan-a-person-could-hope-for self.


    .-= Molly Gordon´s last blog ..How to stop doing it all without losing control of your business or your budget =-.

  15. Sarah Bray
    January 5, 2010 | 9:23 pm

    You are AMAZING. So honored to be one of your awesome people…you are certainly one of mine. (And your particular shad of orange is quite splendid and inspirational. Just had to add that in. 🙂
    .-= Sarah Bray´s last blog ..A few et ceteras as we get this new year rollin’ =-.

  16. Fabeku
    January 7, 2010 | 1:31 pm

    Hey taters!

    I could totally *squee* at the sight of you fabulous folks stopping by to say hey.

    @Hiro – Thanks for the good wishes and celebration. I appreciate both a bunch. I’m glad to know you.

    @Katie – I’m so glad 2009 had more awesome than suck for you. And yay for meeting singing bowls and starting the day by biggie sizing it!

    @Elizabeth – Your comment made me happy. Really, really, really happy. And grateful too. Thank you.

    @Naomi – Big non-hippie hugs. And the getting-awesomer bit? Right back atcha. It’s pretty fabulous getting to watch you change the world.

    @Leah – Thanks! I’m really grateful for you too. I’m so glad our paths have crossed. You are making the world more beautiful. With your art. And your awesome self.

    @Mr. Pants – You know I had Chicago in my head for days after reading this, right? I’m pretty sure I even dreamed of them at one point. And despite dropping Chicago in my head, you still rock.

    @Rachael – Yay for Twitter! Because it makes it possible to bump into all kinds of awesome people. Like you! I’m totally stoked we met.

    @Barbara – Thanks. That means a lot to me. I appreciate you and your support a ton.

    @Gina – Every suck has a silver lining. You know that should totally be a t-shirt, right? Because it should. Thanks for your awesomeness and support.

    @Hayden – Libations! Yay! I lovelovelove what you wrote. And the part about the music? Huge. Thank you.

    @Josiane – Ditto on the up-there-on-the-list bit. Here’s to more hanging out and more playing with sound-ey stuff!

    @Wulfie – Totally welcome for the reminder. And big thanks for being a part of the awesome.

    @Shawna – Yeah, I’ll totally be at Jen’s retreat. Woohoo! Super excited. And see you there!

    @Molly – You’re one of the reasons that I love Twitter so much. Hanging out with you there rocks. Lots.

    @Sarah – You rock. And you help other people to rock. Which makes you rock even more. I’m crazy glad our paths crossed on the interwebs. And thanks for the orange-ey lurve.

    Every single one of you are awesome. And I am so grateful to know you, and to get to hang out with you, and to see all the awesome that shakes out in the process.

    Big thanks. And much chocolate.

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